I Have a Dream

I carried it face down while it registered, afraid to look. Afraid the answer was NO. I waited for multiple eternities before finally making the flip. And time absolutely stood in a parenthesis of complete silence when I saw the word PREGNANT in the digital window of the little blue stick. My entire body exploded Read more…

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Extreme

Four years ago tomorrow I thought I pee’d myself while I was walking the dogs… And now, four years later my heart has been broken wide open…which hurts but also lets in lots more room for love. I see milestones pass before my eyes… first steps, first word- Wow, the first moment I laid eyes on Read more…

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Wrong Planet

This is a post for you… The Friend that reads this blog every day… Sometimes at night right after I hit publish…and sometimes you write me and you say that my blog is the first thing you read each day… sometimes from your phone before you even get out of bed. You are totally my people…My word Read more…

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Man in the Mirror

My Dad taught me that you can scare the crap out of someone without raising your voice. It involves unwavering eye contact, long pauses and deep breaths. He taught me that money does not define you- whether you have it or not. He taught me that a 1985 Sky Blue Buick La Sabre (my 2nd car Read more…

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Chasing Happy

If there’s one thing I’ve learned during the past excruitiatingly beautiful year of Mom’ing- it’s that happiness must be created from scratch daily. You must be willing to constantly tweak your recipe… share the ingrediants that work for you and when you can- make enough for others to share… You can only stock up on Read more…

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The Dot

I forgot how extra hard Mom’ing is with Michael out of town every week for work… It’s been a few weeks so I’m quite rusty… I’m currently in the midst of a patience deficit… As we speak Greyson is turning the only light in the room on and off and on…and off…and on…and it is Read more…

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Totally Screwed Up But Happy

Let’s live today like we didn’t just get a Cancer diagnosis… Like we didn’t lose a loved one… Like we didn’t lose our job or our house… The great thing that comes with something crappy happening to you? You realize how darned spectacular regular old everyday life is…especially those boring old days that seem to Read more…

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Left Overs

I don’t have a real post in my head tonight. Just leftover thoughts, floating about. Today I relaxed.. I napped when the boys napped… I watched Bravo TV like it was a job that I was damned good at… And I just finished a bowl of frozen yogurt so big I actually feel a little Read more…

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Acceptance

Saturday I was driving in my car. An old- Toad the Wet Sprocket song called, Somethings Always Wrong was on the radio…and suddenly it was 1992… I was on my way to college…scared, nervous, happy, sad, scared, overwhelmed, hopeless and hopeful. Will I fit in? Will I find my people? Will I miss home? Will I Read more…

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