autism spectrum

Back to school time… I remember only bits and pieces of grade school. I have a vague memory of riding the school bus. I don’t remember his name, I just remember he was very overweight. On the ride home when we got to his stop, he would stand up to exit the bus and that Read more…

I carried it face down while it registered, afraid to look. Afraid the answer was NO. I waited for multiple eternities before finally making the flip. And time absolutely stood in a parenthesis of complete silence when I saw the word PREGNANT in the digital window of the little blue stick. My entire body exploded Read more…

Dear Frank, You have no idea the impact you have on a Wednesday. What you don’t know is that your presence has been a calming and reassuring force in our week for years now. No matter how good or how bad our week was, there you were every Wednesday reminding me that we could go Read more…

Today I was waiting. Waiting impatiently for Grey to pee. Bored. Sick of the Bathroom. So much waiting. Always waiting. Waiting for him to wash his hands. It takes him so long and it’s so much easier to do it for him but then he doesn’t learn. So much waiting. Waiting until August for the Read more…

I tried to pretend like last night was like any other night. Deep breath in. Exhale. Deep breath. Exhale. No thinking. Stop thinking. I SAID NO MORE THINKING, CHRISSY. I felt like it was the night before I was giving birth and I knew that by today everything would change. Maybe for just a day Read more…

There’s nothing like an end of year school program to feel like a card carrying parent… At Grey’s typical preschool the kids have been practicing forever for their end of the year program. They are so adorable…  Grey’s Teacher shadow and I discussed it before hand and we were going to have Grey stand on Read more…

Four years ago tomorrow I thought I pee’d myself while I was walking the dogs… And now, four years later my heart has been broken wide open…which hurts but also lets in lots more room for love. I see milestones pass before my eyes… first steps, first word- Wow, the first moment I laid eyes on Read more…

I believe in hot and sweaty summer nights and crickets and sundresses and warm breezes I believe in the under dog. They are usually almost always absolutely my favorite I believe music makes little teeny tiny band aids that find the hurt and make it a little better I believe good things come to those Read more…

This is a post for you… The Friend that reads this blog every day… Sometimes at night right after I hit publish…and sometimes you write me and you say that my blog is the first thing you read each day… sometimes from your phone before you even get out of bed. You are totally my people…My word Read more…

whit waaaayyyy Sometimes when I go running with Greyson I give him choices because it makes him happy…and it also illustrates the beautiful cause and effect of using language… Grey- which way should I go? That way- or that way? I ask, pointing to the left and right… And then as soon as he answers- whit Read more…

I was so excited all day… Almost giddy really…No expectations– I’d whisper just to be safe. This was gonna be good- and I just knew it. He was gonna surprise me. He always does. We were taking the boys to see Yo Gabba Gabba -Live, Greyson’s favorite TV show since he could watch TV- and Parker’s Read more…

If there’s one thing I’ve learned during the past excruitiatingly beautiful year of Mom’ing- it’s that happiness must be created from scratch daily. You must be willing to constantly tweak your recipe… share the ingrediants that work for you and when you can- make enough for others to share… You can only stock up on Read more…